I wish

Dear readers,

I wish i got no such bad result. I wish i got 4.0 of TPNG. I wish i got all A's. I wish i was even more hardworking in the past. I wish i can turn back time. I wish i can change the result back then.

yes, i'm wishing for the impossible made possible in my dreams. dreams i dreamed at the night and nights before. I wish i never wake up from such a cool dream. I wish for everything.

Wait, why am i wishing for such minors again? Because i can wish for better majors.

I wish i am a very successful person now, and bother not to study and do chores and have all the money in the world. I wish i am the President of the United States of America. I wish i am a cartoon characters where i am the majestic hero; The Last Air bender in Avatar, The Elric Brothers in Fullmetal Alchemist, The Batman in Batman, The Red Power rangers in Power Rangers, The Spongebob in Spongebob. (HUH?)

I wish i am an international artist doing tours around the Europe and the world, I wish i am a magician; doing wonders everyone would pay to see.

I wish i have magic powers that can change my results. Wait, i wish i have magical powers that i can even change everyones result and can even controls pen and pencil the invigilators used.

That is a lot of wish i made. Choose one. Choose your fav. Well, as u may have thought before, i got bad results again and this time too. C'mon life please be on my side. I am so freakin annoying. OMG.

Oh Lord, give me the strength to carry on to live peacefully, to actually live a life i want. *sigh*

I'm writing this considering no one else is getting bad result. HMMMMM.

"C'mon fitri, its not that bad. I know u can do better. Just do it. The road that lies ahead are never be-told. It can be your fairy tails. You can even live your infinite dreams with happy ending, with princess for you. Be thankful and be strong." This is what i said to myself and everyone else.

Dream high. Let time heals the wound.

Thank you.

friday's dilemmas.

dear beloved readers,

i'm writing about my dilemmas on friday; last night.

so, as usual, friday in the eastern zone, particularly, kelantan, is a great day for an escaped to a world of our own; of life and no work. in short, holiday.
but, the last day of hardwork that pays to the people living in other zone in malaysia.

however, i'm having loads of dilemmas. lets start.

i woke up from my deep sleep when its time, and the time is; when its about 15 minutes before Jumaat prayer. and heres the dilemma. i dont want to wake up early, its holiday, c'mon, no one wants to get up that early. the dilemma is caused by my conscience.

listen;

"eh, fitri, dont get up early, you'll have to take bath twice, first; before breakfast, then, second time for jumaat prayer, dont get up laaaa".
"you will have to change more clothes too. if u just stay asleep, you'll be in ur pyjamas and when u wake up to go to jumaat prayer, you can simply take a bath and change to ur baju melayu, does that save more time and water.=P"

but it seems that other force keeps waking me up. my mom. haha.

thats the first dilemma.
here goes the second one.

the conscience again;

"go nowhere, you wont have to change from your baju melayu"

thats another dilemma.
but, when, the family planned to go and visit mishpuchah or even shopping mall, i have to change and that is against my conscience.

do you know the point of writing this entry?
to tell you that i'm deeply in stress because all of the outside force that keeps telling me to disobey my loyal conscience.
tension! urgh!

thats it. thanks,.
l8er.